Tuesday, August 31, 2010

In Denial

I am still in denial that this has even happened to me.
My worst fear...


Since friday this is all I have been "allowed" to do

except she looks happy & somehow content with her bed rest.

This whole pregnancy I have loved the fact that my days are filled with exercise, errands, Target, swimming & all the other mommy duties around my house. (It isn't till you are told not to move that you get the strong urge to clean something.)

Here is how is all started.. the story is long, so feel free to skim.

Friday morning I went in for my doc appointment right after my morning workout I have been doing since Day 1. This pregnancy has been a little more difficult because of how low she is and it tends to get pretty painful, all things I told my doc & he reassured me that exercise was the best thing for me.

They ask me if anything had changed in the last 2 weeks, Nope. I am only 32 weeks, which is early to start dilating, but he checks me anyways because of how low she sits. My doc then quickly starts asking me if I have been having contractions... not that I know of! When I had Austin I didn't really feel any contractions either and then got the drugs, so I am kind of oblivious to the whole labor thing.

Apparently I was in pre-term labor, dilated to a 1 1/2 and 80% effaced. He told me to go straight to the hospital to stop it & if things weren't too bad than I would leave by that afternoon. So I hop in my car & drive to the hospital, a little confused by the whole thing & hoping I could still go swimming that afternoon.

After getting hooked up at the hospital, turns out my contractions were about 2 mins apart. That is when I figured they were serious. The weirdest part was I still had no idea, my belly just felt a little crampy but the nurses would have to say, "you're having a contraction right NOW." oh....

Long story shortened.. they admitted me, stabbed me with an IV and then stabbed me again with a fat steroid shot to help the baby's lungs develop faster and told me I was staying at least for the night. My doc came that afternoon and told me how lucky we were that my appt was on Friday because I probably would have gone the whole weekend in labor and had no idea. Once I get dilated past a certain point it is very hard to stop the labor & she would have come & spent 6 weeks in the NICU with IV's, feeding & breathing tubes.

I got released from the hospital Saturday afternoon after 1 more round of steroid shots- seriously hurt. I asked the nurse if it would give the baby back hair.. she didn't really laugh. I am on bed rest till 34 weeks, when the lungs are supposed to be fully developed. That means a week from Sunday & I can't even tell you how hard it has been. I am trying my best for the baby because when I have her, I want to bring her home with me.

The best news from this weekend was seeing her again on the ultrasound and having the tech tell me that she has HAIR! Oh- I was so thrilled. I don't make babies with hair.. but I saw it for myself and it was so cute.

So think of me when you are out and about.. and maybe pick up a good crossword puzzle & Diet Coke to drop by the house.

Visitors Welcome!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

On the Hunt

I am on the hunt for the perfect, ugly vintage mirror for under $30 like this one...

that I can transform into one of these...

to hang in the nursery.

I have been looking at Goodwills, local thrift stores & even creepy Craig's List- no luck!

Keep your eyes out!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Long Days

Nick has been working late the last 2 weeks, like 10-11pm late.

All I wonder/ask:
Is it busy season??
Why do you have to work so much??
Because that is just how it is- always a crisis.

As much as I am grateful for his job and the possibilities it holds for us...
I seriously hate his job and so does Austin.
Long days = Austin doesn't see Daddy till the weekend.

But I keep my mouth shut because I know it is harder for Nick than I realize- he loves his Bubba.
It is just these little moments that he looks forward to..

Yesterday Austin lined up his cars & pointed to one,
"This is Momma's car" (it was red with flames going down the side, I must be pretty cool)
Me-  "Where is Daddy's car?"
pause, "It's at work."
Me- "oh....well let's call Daddy to say hi!"
"No, Daddy's busy."

As for baby #2, she is doing great and moving like crazy. We will just lie in bed at night and watch my belly contort in all kinds of weird ways.

I went to the doctor today (every 2 weeks now!) and was concerned about lots of pain I have been feeling. It used to just be after I exercised & that is normal since she is heavier and it is more pressure. But now it is constant and throbbing- it pretty much just feels like she is going to fall right out.

The doc said I am not dilated, so we don't need to worry about that but suggested I wear a belly support band.
Umm.. no thanks.
If you only knew how many layers I am already wearing and it's August.
The heat is unbearable and with humidity....
I am going to just have to suck it up.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

thoughts & progress

Lately I have been feeling a lot like this....

and having naughty thoughts about this....

but trying to enjoy the 2 months I have left with just him....

(really enjoying his smoothie)
I was excited to receive my fabric in the mail!!!

here it is!

My first response from most after telling them I got my fabric was, "soo was it worth it?"
and all I can say is... YES!
I know it was more than what I wanted to spend but I also know nothing else would have compared (in my warped mind) and I just love it.
Plus, I have bought everything for her bedding now and as promised, I kept it on budget... well close enough.

We made progress on the nursery Saturday!! I spent the morning taking down the last of the decor and nails, Nick spent the whole day trying to get rid of this color,

so we can paint it a nice powdery pink but I was a little emotional to see the blue go.

Here is the first coat of primer...

looked pretty bad.

Here is the second coat of primer...

we are thinking this should be enough primer, but plan on doing 2 coats of the pink. Nick wasn't the happiest when we discovered that not only did we need 2 coats of primer, but probably 2 coats of pink paint.

Now I just need to decide what color.

I want something really soft & pink, nothing loud. I am pretty set on either option 'M' or option 'B'. Hopefully we finish painting this week!!